This material world is the domain of the illusion. The power of the illusion in this material plane is insidious; it is everywhere. The Lord, and the love of the Lord you have found in your heart, is why you keep moving forward; why you give your service. In this place though, your love of the Lord is being covered over by the illusion. Take some time to sit and just be with your love of the Lord. Pray. Please, Lord, touch me. I want to feel you. You have all touched the Lord and he has asked you to do so much work for Him. Feel the Lord once again and try to understand the insidious force of the illusion and how it wants to have you forget this love of the Lord that you have.